This seems to be the most heartbreaking day for me. I was fooled by my emotions. It took over my actions AGAIN. I should have learned better.
It was February 14, 2011. For those people who are in love and have special someone, it was the day they been waiting for - a day to show how they love their loved ones. But for me it was a nightmare. I thought it would be the most unforgettable night I will ever experience. I have the chance to have a talk with the person I really missed way back from my first year in college. She was my former classmate before I actually decide to shift. It’s been three years since the last time we had texted each others. Now, I have the courage to speak myself to her again. I was nervous yet excited at the same time. I realized what a romantic scene it was. That was Valentine’s day, a perfect day to show how you missed and appreciated one another. But I expected too much, I think. My expectations and assumptions failed me again. The more I want to keep the conversation going, the more I think that she’s not happy talking to me anymore.
That night, I also have a short talk with my classmate. Well, she’s good looking for me. She’s the very first person who has been very sweet to me. And I appreciated it. At least expected, another not-so-good-conversation has happened between us. We didn’t argue for sure because I don’t and I can’t make arguments with her. It just that I don’t know why I said those nonsense things with her. Those are about matters of the heart. I know I have no right to say things about that to her. We already parted ways. She even admitted to me that we are not that close anymore in compare when were in second year. I agree with that and maybe that was the reason why I said those things to her.
Now, I feel like I can’t face her. I don’t have enough courage to see in her eyes. I really mean it. I don’t want her to see me. That’s why I promise to myself that I would never text her again. Because from the moment I texted her, I lost my control over myself and my emotions will took over. Then, a disaster will happened.
