Stop the chase

July 28, 2014. 2:49am

I find myself opening this blog site and write a not-so-interesting blog entry just for the reason that i can't sleep. I just finished watching a thai movie which mainly tackles unselfless love. But i don't personally believe in that story. Watching that kind of movie made me remember that particular classmate that i have back in college. She does almost everything i think i can do and say to a special person. It's like she reads what on my mind which made every single moment with her is special. She made me think and realize that she appreciate everyting that i did for her. But i learned my lesson. Actually all i wanted is just to be friends with her. Friendship that won't stop even though we did'nt see that much but will not forget to talk to each other. But she just stopped. I texted her once and she did even invited me for a friendly date to catch things up but it never happened. I waited for her again but she never came back. I took the courage again to text and talk to her but it seems like that she doesn't want to talk to me again. It took hours for her to reply for just one simple text. I just asked her how she was and it took her another day to reply when i asked her another question to continue the conversation. Then she stopped. I asked myself why i always get the same result. I thought this one would be different but they are all the same. They kept me hanging and having those unanswered questions with me. I always say that i can't actually give my full trust to someone. I think that's already happening. And it started when i was just  eight or nine years old. That's the first time i gave my trust to someone but she just throw it away. 

Sweet Thing

It's about 2:20am and am still wide awake. So many things happened today. First, we finally have an internet connection at home. Second, after more than a year, i guess, i saw Abi. What makes it memorable was our eyes unexpectedly meet. I was at the lobby of our building around 5:30 in the afternoon, the same time of her out. So Im kinda' expecting her at one of the elevators there. First elevator, no sign of her. Second elevator, i thought all of the people already get out. In my surprise, she and her friend were the last to get out in the elevator. I was then looking at the other elevator, getting ready to get in.  But I was stuck looking at her and she was looking at me too 😳😳😳. Sweet 😊😊😊. Though we basically in the same building, same company but it feels like she's so near yet so far. But Im happy to see her again.