don't we all? (nice)

I was parked in front of the mall wiping off my car. I had just comefrom the car wash and was waiting for my wife to get out of work. Coming my way from across the parking lot was what society would consider abum. From the looks of him, he had no car, no home, no clean clothes, and no money. There are times when you feel generous but there are othertimes that you just don't want to be bothered. This was one of those"don't want to be bothered times." "I hope he doesn't ask me for anymoney," I thought. He didn't. He came and sat on the curb in front ofthe bus stop but he didn't look like he could have enough money to even ride the bus. After a few minutes he spoke. "That's a very pretty car,"he said. He was ragged but he had an air of dignity around him. His scraggly blond beard keep more than his face warm. I said, "thanks," and continued wiping off my car. He sat there quietly as I worked. The expected plea for money never came. As the silence between us widened something inside said, "ask him if he needs any help." I was sure that he would say "yes" but I held true to the inner voice. "Do you need anyhelp?" I asked. He answered in three simple but profound words that I shall never forget. We often look for wisdom in great men and women. We expect it from those of higher learning and accomplishments. I expected nothing but an outstretched grimy hand. He spoke the three words that shook me. "Don't we all?" he said. I was feeling high and mighty, successful and important, above a bum in the street, until those three words hit me like a twelve gauge shotgun. Don't we all? I needed help.Maybe not for bus fare or a place to sleep, but I needed help. I reached in my wallet and gave him not only enough for bus fare, but enough toget a warm meal and shelter for the day. Those three little words stillring true. No matter how much you have, no matter how much you haveaccomplished, you need help too. No matter how little you have, no matter how loaded you are with problems, even without money or a placeto sleep, you can give help. Even if it's just a compliment, you can give that. You never know when you may see someone that appears to have it all. They are waiting on you to give them what they don't have. A different perspective on life, a glimpse at something beautiful, arespite from daily chaos, that only you through a torn world can see.Maybe the man was just a homeless stranger wandering the streets. Maybe he was more than that. Maybe he was sent by a power that is great andwise, to minister to a soul too comfortable in themselves. Maybe Godlooked down, called an Angel, dressed him like a bum, then said, "go minister to that man cleaning the car, that man needs help." Don't we all?


-From letkumaku

LETTING GO

I was talking to princess awhile ago and its been a long time since i heard her voice. 1 month to be exact. Listening to her voice again makes me feel at ease, comfortable and aside from that its very soothing. While talking to her i notice the excitement she has in her every story. I think she missed the times when we both exchanging thoughts about the things that happened to us. In our talking, she gave me solicited advice that i really need and i think i must follows those advice. I want to list all her advice so that i can easily remembered and look for it.

1st. " kung hanggang dun na lang talaga, panahon na lang ang makakaayos nyan."

2nd. "wag mo na masyadong isipin yan.wag mong seryosohin.kapag ginawa mo naman yun hindi ibig sabihin hindi siya mahalaga sayo."

3rd. "hindi lang naman ikaw ang may kasalanan.pareho kayo.hindi mo yan maayos ng ikaw lang.dapat dalawa kayo."

4th. "kung naiilang siya sayo, problema na niya yun."

5th. "away bata lang yan, lilipas din yan."

6th. "wala ka ng magagawa kung ayaw na niya o kung hanggang dun na lang yun.hindi mo naman siya kontrolado.pabayaan mo na lang."

Ito pa yung mga dagdag ko.

7th. "wag kong hayaang maapektuhan ako ng isang simpleng pagtatampo ng isang tao kahit na mahalaga pa siya sa akin."

8th. "may mas mahahalagang bagay pa na dapat kong bigyan ng pansin kaysa sa walang patid na kadramahan na ito."

9th. "hindi sapat na ikaw lang ang gagawa ng paraan.isipin mo din ang kalagayan niya.baka ayaw na din niya."

10th. "tama na yung nangyari dati.wag ka ng magpaapekto pa.kung patuloy mong gagawin yun, ikaw na naman ang talo."

at my best

Wednesday
July 1, 2009

I was in the library when i saw her sitting in one corner with our common friend. I was really nervous to see them especially her. I don’t know why i was feeling that. I know that i already settled the misunderstandings we had. When I finally saw her I stay calm as I could. I don’t want her to see me down, hopeless and needing her around. I don’t want her to feel that I really miss her so much because if I do, she wins and I lose again. I don’t want to feel the guiltiness i always felt before. I dont want to be weak infront of her. I want her to see that i've been changed, that i've been so much better when she decided to ignore me and i decided to let her go. I thought after summer, things between us will finally be alright since we will seldom see each other. No more feeling of discomfort or uneasiness. I was wrong. When she saw me, she walks away without a word. I was definitely in shock. Is there anything that i have done very wrong? That's the question in my mind after those scenarios. I dont want to feel regrets at the end, blaming myself that i didnt give my best to settled the problem between us. I just want her to be happy and be comfortable with me just like before. I hope it will happen soon.