Wednesday
July 1, 2009
I was in the library when i saw her sitting in one corner with our common friend. I was really nervous to see them especially her. I don’t know why i was feeling that. I know that i already settled the misunderstandings we had. When I finally saw her I stay calm as I could. I don’t want her to see me down, hopeless and needing her around. I don’t want her to feel that I really miss her so much because if I do, she wins and I lose again. I don’t want to feel the guiltiness i always felt before. I dont want to be weak infront of her. I want her to see that i've been changed, that i've been so much better when she decided to ignore me and i decided to let her go. I thought after summer, things between us will finally be alright since we will seldom see each other. No more feeling of discomfort or uneasiness. I was wrong. When she saw me, she walks away without a word. I was definitely in shock. Is there anything that i have done very wrong? That's the question in my mind after those scenarios. I dont want to feel regrets at the end, blaming myself that i didnt give my best to settled the problem between us. I just want her to be happy and be comfortable with me just like before. I hope it will happen soon.
July 1, 2009
I was in the library when i saw her sitting in one corner with our common friend. I was really nervous to see them especially her. I don’t know why i was feeling that. I know that i already settled the misunderstandings we had. When I finally saw her I stay calm as I could. I don’t want her to see me down, hopeless and needing her around. I don’t want her to feel that I really miss her so much because if I do, she wins and I lose again. I don’t want to feel the guiltiness i always felt before. I dont want to be weak infront of her. I want her to see that i've been changed, that i've been so much better when she decided to ignore me and i decided to let her go. I thought after summer, things between us will finally be alright since we will seldom see each other. No more feeling of discomfort or uneasiness. I was wrong. When she saw me, she walks away without a word. I was definitely in shock. Is there anything that i have done very wrong? That's the question in my mind after those scenarios. I dont want to feel regrets at the end, blaming myself that i didnt give my best to settled the problem between us. I just want her to be happy and be comfortable with me just like before. I hope it will happen soon.
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