Our First Back to Back

November 20, 2014. 8:25am

I'm in a night shift before that day. My officemate decided to just sleep at our office after her duty at 11pm. I was happy because I will not be alone in our room. My schedule is 11pm-8am. We go out in the office around 8:15am. Since it's been a week after our last meeting, I wonder what it feels like when our paths crossed outside the office. Will she smile at me? Or will she just nod as a sign of her recognizing me? I was just thinking about it and it happened so fast. We are on our way of crossing to the other side of the street when I saw a beautiful lady in blue with a big smile while waving her hand and looking in my direction. Then I learn, it was her. She was waving her hand because she's a friend of my officemate. What a lucky day for me!!!

The day after, I am still thinking about that. I still feel like I'm in a cloud nine. I know I am asking too much when I thought of having to see her again that day. This time in a different situation. I am hoping to see her crossing our path but just the two of us. Will I make a good impression? Then it happen again. That very same day, I met her again. Since I was hoping to see her, I decided not to cross the streets and go to the other side which I don'tI usually do. Because in there, few people walk in that way, so I always go that side. That time, I choose the other one though I don't know what side she usually walk through but my gut feeling says that Im on the right path. I was checking my watch, it was already 8:22am. I said to myself that today will not be my day. She wad almost late yesterday and I know she will cannot afford to be late again. I was looking to the side because I saw a lot of familiar faces. People from my company who I just sometimes saw in the lobby or in the corridor. Then, my wish that day came through the second time. We crossed our path again. I was not looking at her directly cause I'm too shy looking at her that close. But I know she was already looking at me. That made my day. That's the first consecutive day that we meet again. I love November.

Hanging By a Moment

November 22, 2014

It's her birthday yesterday. I make sure that I show her that I don't forget that special day. I message her through Facebook in the morning. She replied to me in the evening. She thanked me and said that she miss me. She wants to see me. 

Actually, I don't know what to reply. I am on the process of forgetting all the things that happened between us as friends. I am beginning to accept the reality that she already forget me and all the things that we had are just memories of the past. Sweet memories of our friendship. I don't want to be bitter. I am grateful that I was able to share some time with her. But I'm doubtful of her intentions. I don't know if she's true to me. If she mean all the things that she said. That's why Im hesitant to say what my true feelings. I don't want to get hurt again. I am thinking that if I let my guard down, I will fall for her sweet words but in the end she will just left me hanging just like what she did last year. I don't know. I want to see her but my head said that it is just another "paasa" moment from her.

The Fifth Encounter

November 7, 2014. 8:05am. Friday

November is now my favorite month of the year. There so many good things happened to me this month. In my previous post, I mentioned that I always wanted to go to the office and see her at the doorstep or at the elevator. My wish came through last friday. I was late and my team leader was already with me waiting in the lobby. In my surprise, someone is already beside me. I didn't notice her at first because I know I'm screwed since I was late. Then, I made a second look. Now it hits me. She was there beside me. I was beside her. When we step in, our eyes meet again. 

The Unexpected Meeting (Third Encounter)

November 2, 2014

I saw that person again after a couple months after our second encounter. Technically, it is not literally the second time because we are in the same company. It's just that it took time before we see each other again. My out in the office is 5pm, but since I really wanted to see that person, I only go out at 5:30pm. The same with hers so I can have the chance to see that person. However, it always fail. Las October 21, I decided to go out around 5:45pm and let my manager go out first. I was not expecting that much since it already passed her timeout. I was waiting in front of the elevator together with a guy from other department. I put my earphones and was getting to ready to step in. When the elevator opens, I saw first her friend then I saw her. I was so surprised and trembling. I saw her eyes looking at me but I was pretending that I am so happy to see her 😊😊. I looked serious when I look at her. I just can't believed it. It was so unexpected. I love that encounter because I feel so cool with the way I dressed that day. I was wearing my polo/blouse but you can see my shirt inside. They say that when you least expect something, it will happen. I think that's true.