Missing You

November 23, 2014

I had a dream last night. It's about you again. 

The place is somewhere in High Street Taguig. It is our college reunion. I was one of the early birds. I was sitting beside my one of my closest friend. When you arrive, I was standing in the corner talking to someone on the phone. I immediately noticed your arrival. You were talking to your group of friends. Then, you look around as if you are looking for someone. You are standing in front where I was once seated. I can clearly see you from the back. My call has ended and I decided to go back to my place. I was right behind you when I hear you asking that closest friend of mine if there's already sitting beside her. She rushly pointed her finger straight to me and said "siya". You turn your head back and our eyes meet. And I smiled to you and innocently asking "yes?". Just before you said something, my phone rang and I had to excuse myself to answer it. I see you looking at me while I go away. I go back to the corner and I enjoy watching you from the back. 

The day after, I am on my way to office when I stumble on you on the streets. You smile and I smile back. You touches my hand and asked me if I can accompany you for a moment. I said yes since I still have plenty time before my shift. You can see in my body language that I allowed my heart to affect my action. I was touching you, being sweet to you and you are the only thing that I see that moment. 

We are at the mall checking some stuffs. We are chatting, smiling to each other and saying sweet things to one another. Then the scene changed. You look different. You have something in your tummy. There you reveal that you are pregnant. I was afraid to know and hear the truth from you. I go out to that store to hide my tears and sad face from you. You wanted to show the picture of that responsible guy. I pretended to be ok but I know you noticed how unhappy I am. 

I don't remember what happened next. But I was happy to see you even just in my dream. That feeling of missing you is back again. After all the years that have passed not seeing you, I thought my feelings have faded and I can stand my ground without falling from your sweet smile. I guess I am not ready yet. It still hurts. 💔💔